MTV's My super sweet 16 & medicine men in south America

Today i was watching a show on MTV called "my super sweet 16" If your unaware of this show its a programme which shows you kids building up to there 16th bday party. It was an American show first then there was a uk version.

The 1 i saw today was a special episode called "super brats" which was so true, the kids on it were little shit bags, the way they spoke to there parents was shocking, the moms/dads were spending 1000's of £'s (well more like 1000's of $ as it was the usa series) The one little bitch was cussing her mom out right because she didnt wanna spend nearly £800 on 1 dress (around $1600) and the kid told her to shove it up her ass, now if I spoke to my mom like that she would have kicked my ass & i would deserve a good slap too.

The Ego of these kids was shocking, it makes me sick to the bottom of my stomach that there moaning & playing up because there parents wont spend huge amounts of cash on some stupid dress, I allways think when i see things like that, somewhere in the world at that moment kids younger than the ones on the show are starving to death because they aint got a single £ or $1 to there name to get food to eat for that day. MTV shows this kinda show as if the way there going on is normall, I dont know what it is, but it makes me MAD as hell to see this. There is something SO wrong in this & i think if the kids ego is that big at 15 what are they gonna be like in 10 years time. The "best" part was the snotty nosed fucker getting a BMW 600 series car, if my memory is correct the engine was a 4 litre, how in gods name can the kid drive that? if there is any justice she would crash it on her first drive.

SHe also got a 30 grand diamond covered Rolex watch, i was thinking I wonder how many black people in some 3rd world country had to work for 12 hour day to get those diamonds just so some little brat can have some bling & brag/show off to her freinds. This kinda thing makes me so angry & it makes me feel as if western culture & 90% of people's aspirations are SO wrong were doomed as a culture unless we wise up very soon, I feel as if were being fed a type of poison which is killing our spirit in some kinda way.

After watching this show for 3 episodes (its like tooth ache you know its painful but you just cant help but touch lol) I turned off & came on the net.
Now I have allways been obsessed with south American "Brujo" shamanism / Medicine men culture & the work they do. I was doing a search on that subject & found this AMAZING film on a south American shaman who was passing his knowledge onto the younger people in his tribe. The 1 person he was showing the information too was a 16 year old boy. The shaman said it was very hard to become a medicine man with many long years of learning including many long trips on drugs such as DMT etc & you had to do at least 1 year totally on your own in the jungle to learn "the way of the spirits" What this guy had to say was so amazing, he seemed to me to be 1 of the most wise men i had ever heard speak, he had a grasp on life than NO western mind would ever be bale to grasp.

What i am trying to get to say is this........Our culture (western views & aspirations) to me seem almost terminally ill. We are raised to believe life is all about how much money you have, the car you drive, the clothes you wear, how many times you had sex, the size of your cock. Western ladys seem to be drawn to men with huge ego's. I have had so little sex etc in my 27 years on this planet, I've had less than 5 partners in my time because i fully reject "bling" culture. I have NO desire to drive a flash car or have a Rolex watch with diamonds in it (if i did i would be more fussed about the poor people getting payed a few 3's a day who had to get the diamonds out the ground)
some times i feel as if I am the only person in the uk that feels this way.


What i'm saying is the kid in the Amazon who only was wearing a pair of shorts was a far "richer" person than this girl off the MTV show. I dont mean rich as in £'s but in a "human being" way.

I feel the western world has lost its way on the road of life & we have been robbed of "culture" I saw that kid in Peru as far better off than any of those kids on the MTV show. I am sure 99.9% of people reading this must think I am mad that i rate someone living in a mud & wood hut with no I-pod, plasma tv, huge BHP car, designer clothes etc as better off that someone who DOES have these goods but to me its the snob from orange county USA who is far worse off. She will NEVER EVER know true life & will be a SOUL LESS piece of ego forever while the kid in the amazon lives more of life in 5 mins than that girl will ever know about.

I want to close this blog with a quote from a book by Jim Morrison (lead singer of the group The Doors)

Jim Morrison from the Book The lords & the new creatures - We are content with the "given" in sensation's quest. We have been metamorphosised from a mad body dancing on hillsides to a pair of eyes staring in the dark

First Blog!

Hello & welcome to my blog.

I have wanted to do a blog for a while yet never got round to doing it, this evening i decided to give it a try & see what comes of it, who knows I may get to be the next Mark Twain from this piece of writing lol.

I have done this to record my daily events etc that i get into, some days will be more flat than others to be honest so dont expect great revelations every time you read it, some days i just need to rant & other days i may throw out moments of mind twisting views/opinions.


Well today is a saturday & its been a bit of a flat day. At the moment i am living back with my mom & stepdad (more on him in later blogs i'm sure) as my flat was ripped apart in a robbery & i am waiting for the council to repair the damage done (i've been waiting now for weeks btw)

I woke up quite late as i had been on diazepam the night before, and got awoken to my mom asking me to come shift some 50kg rocks that there using to make the fish pond "look nice"
Wow thanks mom for that wake up call, So first thing this mid morning (11am) i get pulled from my warm & cosy Womb like bed to shift rocks like some damm Levee camp worker in 1930's Mississippi, great start to the day so far.

After 40 mins of fucking about making some daft pond "look nice" i finally got my morning smoke & coffee. I just dont get why people do that kinda thing tbh. We live in the UK its not like you can relax out in the garden on a warm summers night watching the fish etc, chances are its bloody cold & maybe raining, great time to be outside i dont think.

After a bit of Jerry Springer on Living TV (yes as i'm at my moms/step dads house the bonus is they have sky+ tv which I didnt have in my old flat) I took the dog out for a "walk".
Now i cant smoke cannabis in there house as they hate all "drugs" imo weed aint a drug but i wont go into that. since I been here every joint i wanna smoke i go over the local football pitch & have a toke in the open. I allways take the dog with me as in the past the damm animal seems to draw girls to it & i hope it may do it again 1 day lol.

I was kicking back having a smoke, chilling out after my rock lifting deal this morning & some total random guy comes walking over & starts to chat with me. I am blazing some proper smelly weed & he MUST have smelt the goods i was toking, turns out his a very good mate of my step dads, If he grasses me up for toking I got a good mind to hunt him down & get all Jeffrey Dahmer on his ass.

Why do total strangers feel the need to come over & talk to you? why cant people just leave me alone for god sake. I will NEVER understand 99% of the population to be honest.

This guy keeps chatting dog talk to me for a good 30 mins, After i noticed he was not gonna fuck off from me i let my joint burn out to re-light after he has spread his dog words of wisdom to me like some god damm canine jesus man.

Got back to my moms & chilled for the rest of the day on youtube watching video clips of the punk band G.G. Allin & his punk group The Murder Junkies. If you dont know of him i reckon you should google the guy. I dont rate his music that much BUT his attitude & his concerts are world famous.

here is the wikipedia entry for him http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GG_Allin


Had a great tea though, some kinda chinese in black bean sauce, after that i checked my email & faffed around on a message board I have been on for years ow & also did a blog too lol.

well its now 10.36PM in the uk on a saturday night, just took 20mg of valium again & i'm gonna sit down & catch George galloway on talk sport for a while. I know he did that cat stuff on big brother but his left wing idea's are right up my street tbh.

For people who dont know what this member of our parlement did onlive TV here is a youtube piece, i must warn you its kinda kinky in a weird cat like way http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xYFVQJ2opE

Till next time..........